I believe I am called by God to be a minister for Him. Actually, we are all called by God to be this: ministers of the Gospel of Jesus Christ (those of us who confess with our mouths and believe that Jesus is the Son of God). But, I know that God has called me to something specific.

In fact, I even had a dream about it. August 1st 2005 I had a dream about being pregnant in a warehouse full of pregnant women about to give birth. We were all expectantly waiting God’s promises.

The next day, a lady came in for a job interview, and when she walked into the room for the first time (I am the receptionist) she asked me “are you pregnant?” She sensed something in the Spirit. This was a huge confirmation for me, otherwise I would have been severely upset and disappointed!!! (Do I look fat to you?)

Then about 9 months later on May 6th at work, that same lady—who, now employed at my company, expressed to me that God had showed her that God was trying to birth a ministry through me, and if I would just let him (and not to say that my future husband isn’t important).

Five months later, after a lot of drama and distraction, I was able to have a breakthrough at work—my biggest temptation—a name named Michael QUIT. I have been taking time to pray and release any and all burdens that still linger.

A couple things have been revealed to me.

First, I have a pride issue with my future husband. I feel the need to express to everyone how much I need and want him in my life. I find all my thoughts, energies and intentions of my free time put into finding him and searching him out and getting him in my life. Even though I pray about it and say I trust God, my actions haven’t really. To the average Christian—or person on the street one would say that I’m just enjoying my singleness and learning how to put myself out there, but to God—I am avoiding Him and possibly even making Him wait on me, even though this whole time I thought it was the OTHER way around.

Last night, after driving home from a long Friday evening with friends, I realized something.

I ACTUALLY LIKE MY LIFE.

The truth is that I am single and God has plans for me right now, today. And—long term, He even has a ministry He wants to birth through me—and what makes me sad is the fact that this lady at my work (well, actually God speaking through her) had to preface it by saying “not to say that your future husband isn’t important” means that God has been waiting on me this whole time. “The LORD is slow to anger, abounding in love and forgiving sin and rebellion.” (Num. 4:18)

I also realized this week that the Lord has been my Husband for a very long time now. He has been the PERFECT example of great communication. Every day, the Lord awakens me with His love, His new mercies, and He TALKS to me through the Word (leaving me love notes), His Spirit (who intercedes for me), and my friends and family (who embody Christ to me daily).

WOW.

I just had just started praying a couple days ago about asking God specifically and seeking out His will in my life for this ministry, and then a ROAD BLOCK. This shouldn’t surprise me, because the enemy has been working overtime in the life of Christians, in the form of temptation (to fall into all kinds of sin), for thousands of years. The point isn’t what the road block was and focusing on it, but what is really important—focusing on Jesus and THROWING off the weight that so easily entangles. I want to break through this and every trial in the future, but, before I can do that I needed to look up what the word “ministry” means.

The American Heritage College Dictionary defines ministry as

1a. The act of serving [This to me says what a ministry is at its pure and simplest form, what should always be the focal point—others centered, and putting others higher than yourself. Phil. 2:4]; ministration. b. One that serves as a means; an instrumentality [serving with a purpose—like having a missions statement for why you do what you do]. 2a. The profession, duties, and services of a minister [my roll in this ministry—specifically designed by God for me]. b. The Christian clergy [Christ-centered]. c. The period of service of a minister [For a period of time—whether it be short term or long term]. 3a. A government department presided over by a ministry [Serves under the covering of a church or other Christian based ministry/group]. b. The building in which such a department is housed [It has it's own place—whether an office or an entire office building or a set of office buildings!!!]. c. The duties, functions, or term of a governmental minister. d. often Ministry Governmental ministers considered as a group [A team—a whole team of people working together as the body of Christ should!!! Not just myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

I believe this provides me with a full course dinner. I can’t wait to digest everything, but I also know that these things take time as ministry does not happen over night. God has been patient with me this long, now it’s my turn! And, now it’s your turn. Please pray with me and for me, as this isn’t just all about me—as I just learned above, ministry happens in groups. Maybe God has called an entire warehouse full of women to do a specific purpose, or maybe that just represents that God already has begun the process of fulfilling His promises, and He’s ready to do it now, today, in your life and in mine!

PUSH!!!