[Guest Post by Angela McNeil] – Thunder Thighs, more cushion for the pushin’, child bearing hips, Saddlebags…
I can go on and on about the names I was called throughout my life–it didn’t stop at high school.
Even when I was on the swim team super active in sports, the comments still came about my thighs.
It was even more frustrating because, being a child of the 90’s I wanted a pair of Guess Jeans but they weren’t styled for curves.
I have always thought pants would fit better if I got rid of my saddlebags.
Many of moments in the dressing room with tears because a dress didn’t fit right or pants didn’t look right because of my thighs, I couldn’t fit into chairs at restaurants or concert venues because of my shape.
My weight pushed me to the point of plastic surgery. I thought liposuction was the only way I was going to get rid of this problem.
I started to have consultations with different surgeons regarding the issue. I saved my money, and when got married in 1999 at the age of 23–my priorities changed.
I always in the back of my mind had it in my head that I will eventually get liposuction done.
Before I knew it, I was at my heaviest (293lbs) in 2011. I started my weight loss journey soon after.
My next thought was–once I get to my goal weight I will get liposuction to get rid of these now duffle bags. But the more I started to research and think about liposuction the more I became on the fence about it.
So I did what any Daughter of Christ does..
Pray about it.
The more I prayed about liposuction the more on the fence I became.
I debated about this step. I went back and forth about this procedure and that. Then a sermon at my church–Generation Church, Oceanside CA–about Abortion, of all topics, on Mother’s Day of all days hit me.
Pastor Shawn, gave a message that,
“We are all created in Gods image” (Genesis 1:26).
Then he talked about Psalms 119 and said,
“For you God created me in my most being, you knitted me together in my mother’s womb, I praise you because I am fearfully & wonderfully made all your works are wonderful – I know that full well, My frame was not hidden from you, when I was made in the secret place, I was woven together in the depths of the Earth.”
It was then I had my “ah ha” moment.
We lie to ourselves.
God is the truth AND it is only God that can speak to me about my struggles with plastic surgery through an Abortion message.
Later that week I went to my trainer Alana to discuss some specifics of what I would like to work on and I instantly said–my thighs.
She told me we can work on it, but that it might never go away because that is how I am shaped.
That is when I just have to step back and say,
“I get it Lord, I love my thighs–they are a part of me and you shaped me this way.”
Remember we are created by the Lord in His image. Start loving YOU as much as HE loves you!
Accountant, Photographer, Dachshund lover, health-nut, and woman of faith. Lives in San Diego, CA with her husband and her two wiener dogs. Here to share my life successes, struggles, and experiences with weight loss and the Lord at http://www.weightedfaith.com.