I'm NOT Pregnant

I’m not pregnant.

Now that I have your attention, I want to tell you a story.

I am no Martin Luther King, but I had a dream that I was pregnant in a warehouse full of women about to give birth. We were all expectantly waiting on God’s promises.

The very next day at work (this was back in 2005), a lady came in for a job interview. She walked into the room where I was the office receptionist and asked me,

“Are you pregnant?”

At first I was shocked. Then horrified.

I said “No!” and she quickly apologized, but said she sensed something in the Spirit. Mind you, I wasn’t working at a Christian work place at that time–so that was a huge confirmation of my dream the night before.

Funny Story, about 9 months later the same lady told me God showed her the meaning of my dream. She said,

God is trying to birth a ministry through me, if I would just let him–and not to say that my future husband isn’t important.”

I have to say. I was pretty upset when she told me this.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN MY FUTURE HUSBAND ISN’T IMPORTANT?

Anyone who knows me, knows how much I prayed and asked God for a husband daily since I was 15. I felt bitter. Like God had personally offended me.

All I ever wanted was to get married, go into ministry, and serve alongside my husband.

When I published my first book, I realized that I couldn’t serve two masters. I finally got it.

I quit my job to pursue ministry full time and to continue writing. There is absolutely no way I would have been able to write “Faithbook of Jesus” and “Not Another Dating Book” as a married woman.

There were things in my soul I needed to wrestle with.

Anguish has a way of changing your heart.

God softened me and used my time as a single person to bless me with a writing ministry–of which I am most grateful for.

Even though I couldn’t see it at the time, God put a wall of protection around me, my heart, and desires.

Surely, LORD, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield. We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and our shield (Psalm 5:12, 33:20).

To the single woman who feels neglected by God, you are not alone.

To the (actual) pregnant woman who is waiting to give birth.

Do not abandon your dreams.

Do not give up your desires.

You may have forgotten, but God won’t!

But Zion said, “The LORD has forsaken me, the Lord has forgotten me.” 

“Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion on the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me” (Isaiah 49:14-16).

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